I shaved my head.
Might as well have gone bald.
It’s been some time. I’ve been trying to get myself unstuck from this creative block that I’ve been in for months now. I’ve posted a video about a month ago for the first time in about 6 months. I’ve been wanting to post a blog post for… so many months I’ve lost count.
I figured the best way to make a ‘comeback’ would be with something relatively drastic.
I let my hair grow since August 2020 until September 2022 – basically two years.
I kind of liked it. In some way it made me feel more free and kind of… special?
Anyway, it was all going well but in September I started uni in Amsterdam (video coming soon) and it all started to get too real if that makes sense. More and more stuff just started to overwhelm me, so I had to cut out some parts of my life.
I didn’t want to accept it, but I had to.
I started to try different strategies to figure out what is my life made up of at the moment and what I can cut loose.
Somehow over the following weeks, my hair would annoy me more and more. One day I thought about shaving my hair and by the end of the day I started to suffocate… from the idea of shaving my hair. It seemed almost stupid which only made matters worse.
It got so bad that I ended up going to the gym at like 10 pm and had one hell of a workout, but it didn’t release that stress. I finally said enough is enough and just went for it.
When I was done, I felt myself doubt whether it was a good decision or not, but more than that I felt relief.
Moral of the story I think is that sometimes the best thing you can do to deal with the chaos in your life is to shock your system. From a simple cold shower to shaving your head or moving to another country, it’s important to go through meaningful changes once in a while so you feel like you’re not just surviving, but atually living.
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